merry christmas!
i am trying to even remember what it was like a year ago. last christmas was just a week or so before surgery.
it is probably good that i am starting to forget what life was like this past year. finally getting over the hump of being inundated with thoughts of my hip.
i am blessed.
i will take recovery at any rate! one year, two years...however long it takes.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Sunday, December 18, 2011
freedom
taking a look back at what life was like a year ago is a huge reality check.
i look back at the anxiety and fear i carried around. i was controlled by my physical limitations, and the emotional and mental strain chronic pain had on me. there was the unknown of if the surgery would heal me, if i would live with this for the rest of my life.
how is chronic hip-pain going to direct what my future looks like?
i am 11 months and 2 weeks post-op and life sure looks different.
i still live with fear of the pain resurfacing like it was, injuring my hip again, and whether or not the pain i still have will be there forever; but i am bound and determined to not let it determine who i am and what i can do. i am actually at a point where i CAN do most things. i CAN walk with limited to NO pain. i CAN live a normal life with a bum hip. i CAN.
my hip is not perfect, but the reality that i can't allow a limitation to determine my future is my new reality.
this last year has been such a transformation. overcoming not only physical pain, but emotional and mental pain as well. i no longer allow the fear to bind me.
this last year has been a mountain i think i have finally conquered.
i look back at the anxiety and fear i carried around. i was controlled by my physical limitations, and the emotional and mental strain chronic pain had on me. there was the unknown of if the surgery would heal me, if i would live with this for the rest of my life.
how is chronic hip-pain going to direct what my future looks like?
i am 11 months and 2 weeks post-op and life sure looks different.
i still live with fear of the pain resurfacing like it was, injuring my hip again, and whether or not the pain i still have will be there forever; but i am bound and determined to not let it determine who i am and what i can do. i am actually at a point where i CAN do most things. i CAN walk with limited to NO pain. i CAN live a normal life with a bum hip. i CAN.
my hip is not perfect, but the reality that i can't allow a limitation to determine my future is my new reality.
this last year has been such a transformation. overcoming not only physical pain, but emotional and mental pain as well. i no longer allow the fear to bind me.
this last year has been a mountain i think i have finally conquered.
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| wristband for surgery - 1.4.11 |
Sunday, December 11, 2011
my how time flies...
as the one year mark approaches there is a lot to process through.
there have been a lot of changes in my life since this escapade started in may of 2010...
as i get closer and closer i want to focus on one aspect of change/process/growth that has occurred surgery in january of 2011. i will try and stay positive! life is looking up so my debbie downer days are, slowly, turnging into something beautiful.
sit back, relax and join me as i take a look back over this last year...
there have been a lot of changes in my life since this escapade started in may of 2010...
as i get closer and closer i want to focus on one aspect of change/process/growth that has occurred surgery in january of 2011. i will try and stay positive! life is looking up so my debbie downer days are, slowly, turnging into something beautiful.
sit back, relax and join me as i take a look back over this last year...
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| three months post-op at my thinking spot or happy place. many an afternoon was spent here. listening to the waves, praying and waiting |
**posts are coming...i did say sit back and relax...they're coming**
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