i look back at the anxiety and fear i carried around. i was controlled by my physical limitations, and the emotional and mental strain chronic pain had on me. there was the unknown of if the surgery would heal me, if i would live with this for the rest of my life.
how is chronic hip-pain going to direct what my future looks like?
i am 11 months and 2 weeks post-op and life sure looks different.
i still live with fear of the pain resurfacing like it was, injuring my hip again, and whether or not the pain i still have will be there forever; but i am bound and determined to not let it determine who i am and what i can do. i am actually at a point where i CAN do most things. i CAN walk with limited to NO pain. i CAN live a normal life with a bum hip. i CAN.
my hip is not perfect, but the reality that i can't allow a limitation to determine my future is my new reality.
this last year has been such a transformation. overcoming not only physical pain, but emotional and mental pain as well. i no longer allow the fear to bind me.
this last year has been a mountain i think i have finally conquered.
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| wristband for surgery - 1.4.11 |
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