tonight is another night with my heating pad and bedtime yogi tea :)
Sunday, November 21, 2010
new tear?
when there are new sensations in the hip, not pleasant ones to be precise, it definitely means i have caused more damage. after a very uncomfortable popping sensation, new symptoms have arrived and old ones have increased. my joint has developed more grinding, as if there is sand in my joint, weakness and loss of range of motion. and pain, more nagging, burning, achy, pulling pain. so on to developing ways to cope through february...any suggestions? i'm looking into massage therapy for increased blood flow, muscle soothing and mobility for increased range of motion and whatever else it can do to make me feel better.
tonight is another night with my heating pad and bedtime yogi tea :)
tonight is another night with my heating pad and bedtime yogi tea :)
Saturday, November 20, 2010
pop goes the weasle
so, if there is a pop in my hip is that a bad thing? my cartilage did a little dancing today, to say the least...pain meds please kick in gear and heating pad love me tenderly tonight!
rain, rain go away...
me, of all people! i would have never thought that i would wish the rain away. i love the way the sky builds, puffing up its chest in anger >:<
its not so pleasant now. someone with joint issues knows what i am talking about. my hip HURTS! my gosh, either it's the change in the barometric pressure or its going to be a really long ride until february...
speaking of february...
in reference to my complaint, it's going to be however long it takes to get in for surgery. maybe february, maybe march, maybe...i'm not done putting responsibility on my hmo! my surgeon called and said they are doing everything they can...whatever that means...how does it take four months to get ten people in!?!
i do need to keep my attitude in check. either i can be upset and frustrated for three more months or i can move on, as much as possible, and live my life as normal as possible until the day arrives. don't get me wrong. if i got a call today, to go in TODAY, i'd take it!
its not so pleasant now. someone with joint issues knows what i am talking about. my hip HURTS! my gosh, either it's the change in the barometric pressure or its going to be a really long ride until february...
speaking of february...
in reference to my complaint, it's going to be however long it takes to get in for surgery. maybe february, maybe march, maybe...i'm not done putting responsibility on my hmo! my surgeon called and said they are doing everything they can...whatever that means...how does it take four months to get ten people in!?!
i do need to keep my attitude in check. either i can be upset and frustrated for three more months or i can move on, as much as possible, and live my life as normal as possible until the day arrives. don't get me wrong. if i got a call today, to go in TODAY, i'd take it!
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| the clouds will clear... |
Saturday, November 6, 2010
reminding myself
Matthew 6 NASB
25"For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?
26"Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?
27"And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why are you worried about clothing?
Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin,
29yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.
30"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith!
31"Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?'
32"For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
33"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
34"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
25"For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?
26"Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?
27"And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why are you worried about clothing?
Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin,
29yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.
30"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith!
31"Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?'
32"For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
33"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
34"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
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| reasons why i am permanently etched |
Friday, November 5, 2010
i'm a formal complainer...
this journey has been a draining one. it takes a lot out of me and alters what i feel like i can and can't do. i visited with my niece yesterday and at 17 pounds it was hard for me to carry her. really?! 17 pounds and i'm done for? or the 2 hour car ride and no narcotics and i can't sleep because of pain, really?!? i can't take on simple things that i take for granite. this is a struggle that is making life hard, hard to keep a smile and hard to keep any sort of pep in my step.
the little pep i had was shattered when on wednesday I made a call to the scheduler in my surgeon's office. this whole time i've been putting all my hope in the idea that i would be given a surgery date in january, and hopefully sooner, hopefully. when talking to the scheduler she said i would maybe be able to get scheduled in february. february?!?!?!?!?! you have got to be kidding me? that would be 4 months from getting the surgery go ahead. that is over a year after this whole fiasco started. that is way too long in my book. isn't that considered patient neglect? needless to say i burst into sobbing of the most epic sorts and quickly turned that utter disappointment into action.
I promptly emailed my surgeon once more with my disappointment and filed a formal complaint with member services. let's give the list of reasons why 4 months is absolutely perposterous...
+chronic pain
+with chronic pain comes chronic norco (10/325) use,
with chronic narcotic (norco) use comes tolerance to pain meds
and a dependence on such substance
+increasing my chances of osteoarthritis
as the de-lamination of cartilage continues
+as the de-lamination of cartilage continues
so does my chances of hip replacement,
and hip replacement in my 40's none-the-less
+neglect of patient care allowing continued damage,
and long-term damage to incur
i am so disappointed at the thought that 4 months would be my wait time for surgery. if my healthcare provider can't provide timely care then there is clear neglect. there needs to be more surgeons or they need to not take on such a high patient/member load. when so much is at stake for a patient there needs to be a greater sense of urgency.
needless to say i felt defeated on wednesday and still feel somewhat defeated. my defeat, though, will soon be personal victory and hopefully a victory for others.
the little pep i had was shattered when on wednesday I made a call to the scheduler in my surgeon's office. this whole time i've been putting all my hope in the idea that i would be given a surgery date in january, and hopefully sooner, hopefully. when talking to the scheduler she said i would maybe be able to get scheduled in february. february?!?!?!?!?! you have got to be kidding me? that would be 4 months from getting the surgery go ahead. that is over a year after this whole fiasco started. that is way too long in my book. isn't that considered patient neglect? needless to say i burst into sobbing of the most epic sorts and quickly turned that utter disappointment into action.
I promptly emailed my surgeon once more with my disappointment and filed a formal complaint with member services. let's give the list of reasons why 4 months is absolutely perposterous...
+chronic pain
+with chronic pain comes chronic norco (10/325) use,
with chronic narcotic (norco) use comes tolerance to pain meds
and a dependence on such substance
+increasing my chances of osteoarthritis
as the de-lamination of cartilage continues
+as the de-lamination of cartilage continues
so does my chances of hip replacement,
and hip replacement in my 40's none-the-less
+neglect of patient care allowing continued damage,
and long-term damage to incur
i am so disappointed at the thought that 4 months would be my wait time for surgery. if my healthcare provider can't provide timely care then there is clear neglect. there needs to be more surgeons or they need to not take on such a high patient/member load. when so much is at stake for a patient there needs to be a greater sense of urgency.
needless to say i felt defeated on wednesday and still feel somewhat defeated. my defeat, though, will soon be personal victory and hopefully a victory for others.
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| for i am ready to fall, and my sorrow is continually before me. pslam 38:17 |
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